John 16 says, “Do not let your hearts be troubled” OK, then why do I feel this way?

These last few days have been troubling for me. I have been on edge but found it hard to figure out why. Certainly the Coronavirus all over the news doesn’t help especially with me being considered “immune system compromised” I have been dealing with emotions that I haven’t been able to understand.  I continue to feel better but being put in a “cautious” category by my health care folks, physical therapist and most importantly my wife, has left me in a very strange place.  I find myself wanting to live trusting the wisdom of those who care for me while not wanting to live by fear. The answer is found in Isaiah 43. O Israel: “Fear not, for I have redeemed you; I have called you by name, you are mine. When you pass through the waters, I will be with you; and through the rivers, they shall not overwhelm you; when you walk through fire you shall not be burned, and the flame shall not consume you. “

Dottie reminded me this morning that not walking in fear does not mean not being wise in my actions. I think I finally heard her and it made me realize why I have felt such angst over the last few days. As much as I want to declare myself better I am not fully recovered. Even though people see me and say I look great, the reality is my recovery can take 6 months to 2 years and there is a very good chance my immune system, which caused Guillain Barre syndrome to occur, very well may still be compromised. Therefore, I need to seek wisdom from those who know much more than me. Please Lord make me “A wise man who will hear and increase in learning, and a man of understanding who will acquire and trust wise counsel. (Proverbs 1:5)”. Larry Burkett writes, “Acquiring wisdom and knowledge can’t be underestimated in it’s importance when you have vital decisions to make. The Bible says in James 1:5, “If any of you lacks wisdom, he should ask God, who gives generously to all without finding fault, and it will be given to him.” In asking God for wisdom you partner closer to God as you listen first and then take His counsel.” It has taken some time but I think God has gotten through to me via His Word and hearing counsel from Dottie and others who love me and are concerned for my well being. I will move forward from here as this image captures.

Knowing I am not fully recovered but with a Hope that God is in control and with a renewed commitment to learn patience (no wonder it is a virtue 🙂 in allowing His healing work to continue in his time not mine.